title: Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me. Please stop telling me how much you love her. I've had enough of listening to your inexplicable sickness of love. I'm tired of faking smiley faces, 'cause I'm not grinning at your touching stories that aren't meant for me. Go muster up courage to talk to her by yourself, I don't care if you fall in love all over again. You say I'm sweet, you say I'm kind, but I don't want to fall deep in love with you so please, please, please, stop texting me. -xx- I feel opressed. Totally drained. I'm reeling of fatigue, my brain is numb and I can't cope in this series of fiesta. I need a break, please. Tired of love problems. Just wanna be single all over again. I don't know how to say no to your request... I really don't want to lose a friend like you. Because of you, I failed my tests. Because of you, I almost got involved in an accident. Because of you, I broke the law. Because of you, I broke my own fragile heart. I broke my own trust. You left me in shattered pieces, but now who's going to piece me back together, to enable me to live a happy life once again, like a normal teenager? |
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title: Was your heart with you when you said forever & always? I still can't believe you did it, up till today.
All the things we shared, all the memories we had, could you bear to toss it all away? You crave for my forgiveness, you wanted me to pretend as if you didn't rip my heart open and massacred the contents. I know I'm no match for her, I knew you didn't feel for me from the very beginning, all you yearned for was someone to succumb and fulfil that thumping loneliness in your heart. Still I played along, I fell for your sweetened words, because your presence made me feel as if you cared. Guess I was wrong. Guess you thought otherwise. And to think you still lied to me up till today makes me hate myself, for believing in you, for giving you my trust. You promised that we would go there together, you promised that you would raise me up, higher to that sea of paradise in the cacophony of crowd cheers. I went there last night without you. I felt like dying, I felt as if I was drowning, there was no sense of control, it was mayhem in my mind. All those broken promises, you didn't mean them from the start. You claimed you made me a present, but it was not for me. Gullibility leads you astray. Love hurts. So I'm going to stay single till I'm 21. -xx- O.M.G. THE BOYS LIKE GIRLS CONCERT WAS SOOOOOOO AWESOME!!! CHAR AND I CARRIED EACH OTHER ON OUR SHOULDERS, I RAISED HER UP LIKE SO HIGH AND I THOUGHT MY SHOULDER BLADE SNAPPED BUT SHE WAS SO HAPPY UP THERE HAHA I FEEL SO BLISSFUL WHEN SHE'S HAPPY! :DDDDDDD O.M.G. WHEN CHARMAINE LIFTED ME I WAS LIKE, XYZOMG FAINTING BECAUSE MARTIN JOHNSON, HOT, GORGEOUS MARTIN JOHNSON CAUGHT MY EYE AND SMILEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I thought I might faint. Their songs are so freaking amazing, Martin keeps on going, I LOVE YOU SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!! I think Paul DiGiovanni is super beautiful, too :) haha! And we got a picture with Duane, Tabitha and one other Singapore Idol Top 10! :D AND OMG WE SCREAMED, TABBY I LOVE YOUUU, to which she turned around, gave us a kiss and waveddd!!! :))))))) CLASS BREAKFASTTT WAS AWESOME!!! :DD Xyzomg I love 314! <3 I bought cheescakes that had this strawberry heart shape on top of it, and everybody was like, omg bernice you made it?? I was like, ya duh! And they were all, wow you're so kind! :) HAHA. Until my friend saw the bakery's name and was like, HEY YOU DIDN'T BAKE THIS! And I went all, nah I just used the box :) But no one believed me. SO SAD! :( -xx- I think I might delete my blog soon. And you won't care, anyway. You never set foot here, not even once. I think I might start to fall for you. |
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title: It's... Complicated. Why do things have to be so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like somebody else gets me frustrated. Because when you said Forever & Always, I fell deep, right into your trap. Shouts and screams of no, you're making the wrong decision fills my head every now and then, I don't know which advice I should heed. You don't even come here, anyway. -xx- P6 CAMP IS TIRINGGGGGGGGGGG XYZOMG!!! The little primary sixes DO NOT LISTEN AT ALL. You have to repeat your instructions ten million times and they only get like, 1/10000000 of what you said. And now they think that my hwachong buddy and I are dating. And when I bull-shitted after getting frustrated by their questions, I said that yes, we're getting married next month. Extraordinarily, they bought it, well wrapped around my beautiful stick of crap. Honestly, bull-shitting requires skill. But oh shizyz, now they want us to hug. And he's Sec 2. I really miss my primary school days. |
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title: You are my only Stuck on a rollercoaster,
can't get off this ride... You made me in every way mesmerized, still I feel as though I'm treading on thin ice. I don't know if you mean what you say, you're controlling the speed, the direction of my heart beat. I want to say no, I want to say you're too fast, but I don't want, and I can't afford to lose this. You've captured me, so deeply, so entranced. I know one day this will all stop, it's as though I'm on the scariest roller coaster, I know what's coming, but I don't have the ability to stop it. It may be enjoyable, it may be exhilarating, and yet so threatening. The scariest part of it all is that I don't know when it's going to stop, and whether you, me, or someone else will be the one ruining the joy of the ride. Or worse still, will we be caught, suspended in mid air, then finally wrenched from our dreamland to a demonishing place known as reality? |
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title: You spin my head right round, right rounnddd ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ |
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title: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :D Yesterday was majorrr fun, or rather TODAY was majorrr fun :D
Champagne just tastes especially good on New Year's. My family hung out with the other families from our Africa tour group, from 7pm to 1.30am :))) It was so exciting, we had an indonesian dinner that was soo cool, played loads of games like Taiti, Charades, Taboo, Cheat, some hand slapping game that made me laugh till my friend was screaming for me to go into the toilet before I wet my pants. I forgot what else made me laugh so hard but all I know is, that amazing party and the afternoon huge family (with cousins and etc) party made me welcome 2010 with more laughter, more hopes and even better dreams. And I think that this year, I must smile more, be more open and enjoy myself to the fullest, even over the littlest of things. I musn't get angry or pissed off, and must not be too stressed even though I'm gonna be the lousiest in the whole class. Be more optimistic, that will be my goal. And stop spending money, that's my second. Although I learnt this new awesome phrase: "Shopping doesn't make the world go round. Shopping makes the ride worthwhile." HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE, THANKS SO MUCH TO SO MANY PEOPLE WHO HAVE WISHED ME, EVEN BEFORE THE REAL NEW YEAR'S :D Sorry that I can't send to every single one of you, and sorry if even you sent but I forgot to reply, but you guys are still the awesome-est. :) Wo ai ni men!!! Hen duo, hen duo!!! <33 xoxo |
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title: EEEEEEEEKK!!! THERE IS A BOYS LIKE GIRLS CONCERT IN SINGAPORE ON THE 28TH OF JANUARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D :D :D :D :D :D
I am going crazyyyyyyyyyy!!! Nat bestie is so awesome, she was telling me that one day, Boys Like Girls will sure come to Singapore and we'll go together!!! :)))))))))) This is ssooooooo exciting!!! Although my parents haven't exactly agreed to buy the most expensive ticket, they agreed to let me go so waitttttt, one step at a time. EEEEEK I AM STILL SO EXCITED!!! :)) After the whole morning till now, I am only halfway through my Math mindmap. And it is looking crap. I still have my LA compooooo :(((((((((((( My life is so horrible I don't like 2010. I just know that I am going to be the bottom of the class and I would probably commit suicide by taking sleeping pills and never wake up the next morning. Interesting, but nah. This post is rubbish and I feel discouraged but let's just cross our fingers and hope that a miracle will happen. I always said I hated dogs, because you know they freak me out by the fact that they BITE. Now I kind of like this dog that my dad's friend's daughter has, it's a teacup poodle and she's called Pillows!!!!!!!! How sweet is that :))))) She keeps on biting my sock (in the end I gave it to her) and I love brushing her hair it's like oooohhhh you know when you're young you comb Barbie's hair??? And you really enjoy it??? THAT'S THE EXACT SAME FEELING!!! :D In addition, her teeth are soooooo tinnyyy even if she bites your arm it doesn't hurt at all, it's only really ticklish!!! She is so cuteeeeee and so prettyyyyyyyyyy but I must stop dreaming 'cos my mum said never in a million years she'll buy a dog. So I have to wait till I'm old and living with my friends or something. So sadd. I miss Pillows :( And I didn't get a picture of her!!! That's even sadder. Yesterday was CCA!!! I really missed my good old calli mates they are so awesome and funnyyy :) Although they are really mean when they make fun of me, but. THEY ARE JUST SOOOOO GOOD FRIENDS, YOU KNOW! I love them all muaxxxzyzyzyyzyz. Even more than I love Pillows!!! Okay. 2010. Here I comeeeeeeee. |
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