you know sometimes, someone comes up to you and tell you all the good things about her day.
you, on the other hand, had just had a very bad day.
you smile, and tell her how cool it is, when actually on the inside, you just want to tell her how screwed up you are now, and ask her to get lost.

in life, many of these stuff happens.
and that's why life's so sucky and idiotic and screwed up.
and that's why we must smile and forget, maybe let the wind take them away.
but sometimes it isn't that easy.
the thoughts may still come and haunt you.
but to win this stupid battle, the thing you must do is to stay strong, and have a friend who is very like you. continue looking at the bright side of things.
it doesn't matter whether you win/lose, the only thing that matters is the experience, and how you felt through it, and what you've learnt from it.

life is so fucking sucky.
i hate stress.
STRESS. is the most stupidest thing in the world.
i hate it when it's exams, when it's my performance.
i hate it when the world thinks i'm so fucking happy when i'm not.
i hate it when everything goes wrong and i'm supposed to pick the pieces up.
i hate it when i'm supposed to do something big in my life; and i know that i'm going to SCREW UP.
i hate it when it's again my turn to do the things that others like, and make myself suffer.
i hate everything.
i hate life.


I'm going to perform in a concert this saturday!
and i haven't even practised my song well yet.
AHHH.
let me tell you.
my life is SCREWED-UP.
fucking SCREWED-UP.
and i don't have time, nor the mood to go practice.
i hate the way life is. ):
i hate pressure.
shoot me. somebody.

i still love you. <3

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