i was wondering when you'd find out. man. i'm not pretending. i'm showing to you how much i dislike you. i dislike your attitude. i dislike the way you leave all the work to me in projects. you think i wouldn't care?! yeah, rightt. i saw you wrongly, your personality was not one i had expected. i'm sorry. friend. i'm just your normal friend like everyone is. & i didn't talk behind your back. don't believe you ask everyone. YOU were the one, kay. my dearie. you went to tell ____, & sucked up to her. haha, your fate. she doesn't listen. she tells it to me, instead.



-xx-

Do you ever wonder how we all got here? On Earth, i mean.
forget the song & dance about Adam & Eve, which i know is a load of crap.
Some people likes the myth of the Pawnee Indians, who say that the star deities populated the world: Evening Star & Morning Star hooked up & gave birth to the first female.
The first boy came from the Sun and the Moon. Humans rode in on the back of a tornado.

Someone, taught me this primordial soup full or natural gases and muddy slop and carbon matter that somehow solidified into one-celled organisms called choanoflagellates...which sound a lot more like a sexually transmitted disease than the start of the evolutionary chain, in my opinion.
But even once you get there, it's a huge leap from an amoeba to a monkey to a whole thinking person.

The really amazing thing about all this is no matter what you believe, it took some doing to get from a point where there was nothing, to a point where al the right neurons fire & pop so that we can make decisions.

More amazing is how even though that's become second nature, we all still manage to screw up.

-xx-

I was eleven, so even to this day i can't tell you how i made my way from our house in Upper Darby to the middle of downtown Providence. I suppose it took me a few hours; i suppose i believed that with my new superhero's cloak of invisibility, maybe i could just disappear & reappear somewhere else entirely.

I tested myself.
I walked through the business district, and sure enough, people passed right by me, their eyes on the cracks of the pavement or staring straight ahead like corporate zombies. I walked by a long wall of mirrored glass on the side of the building, where i could see myself.
But no matter how many faces i made, no matter how long i stood there, none of the people funneling around me had anything to say.

I wound up that day at the middle of an intersection, smack under the traffic light, with taxis honking and a car swerving off to the left & a pair of cops running to keep me from getting killed.
At the police station, when my dad came to pick me, he asked what i had been thinking.

I hadn't been thinking, actually. I was just trying to get to a place where i'd be noticed, for once.

-xx-

TODAY MINGGY, CHARM & I WENT TO KAP! ((:
a place for despo people.
but we're not despo! ;D

before that, we went to do adobe photoshop.
it was fun!
charm was like so funny.
'cause like there was only 2 seats together, then one more @ the other farfar end.
so i volunteered to sit at the farfar end.
charmaine brought my bag to the 2 seats one. -.-
then minggy just watched us go back & forth.
finally i gave in to charmaine.
after like 5 mins, the comp behind us was empty.
so we rushed charmaine over.
& she was like,
"WALAO, i waited soo long for my comp to load then you all call me to use this comp. see la, now i have to switch it off then come over here & switch on again. HAIYA!"

so i volunteered to help charmaine log in.
after i typed in the password & username, minggy was staring at me.
"YOU KNOW CHARMAINE'S USERNAME & PASSWORD???"
i went like,
"umm. no. i logged in through my account."
HAHAHAAAAA!
charm knew tho.
only minggy didn't.
no offence!

we went to KAP!
to eat & do LA.
we bought meals & ICE MILO, as usual.
then we moved 3 times of seats o.o!
so embarrassing.
then we ate & crapped.
minggy saw one seat & we wanted to go to that but someone got it D:
so never mind!

we started to get all "creative" & decorated on each other's drinks with love notes.
charmaine took a picture of it all!
& she'll send me on msn so i can upload here ((:

THEN OHMYGOD.
THIS IS THE FREAKING FUNNIEST!
the thought of it makes my stomach churn of laughing ):
so funnny!!!
i was trying to put a piece of chicken nugget on top of minggy's straw (that's inside her cup).
but failed.
then i used the chicken mcnuggets box to balance on MY straw ('cause apparently mine is much more stable)! :D
& I SUCCEEDED!
then minggy took a picture.
& i was so scared that i might drop it so my hands were like in a weird position & MINGGY TOOOOOOOK A DAMN PICTURE OF ME & THE BEAUTIFUL MASTERPIECE! but i look so damn idiotic in it.
i shall ask minggy to send it to me.
minggy & charm & i were laughing NON STOP.
'cause i look fat, ugly & square headed in it.
i shall upload it some other time! ((:

then we did LA, finally.
i was so bored so i just wrote,
"Hello Charmaine/Minggy" onto each of their paper respectively.
THEN THE DUMB THEM WENT TO VANDALISE MY PAPER! & wasted 15 mins.
on writing,
"I LOVE YOU, BERNICE/CHARM/MINGGY IS THE LOVE!" & etc.
-.-!
sooooo idiotic!
then mingggy was like,
"oh, i just realised that i'm les."
!!!!!!

got some more other stuff but i shall skip to the walking to the bus stop part.
youknow we were walking, then i was sooo urgent. to go to the toilet.
OHYA.
youknow after the photoshop thinggy???
i needed to go to the toilet BADLY.
so we went to the one beside our class.
but the cleaners told us that we can't use it.
so minggy was like,
"science block!"
then i was like,
"okay, quick!"
then we heard shouting.
we stopped & loooked back.
the servants were like telling us that there also cannot use.
then we shamefully walked back & went down.
IT WAS SOOO EMBARRASSSING!

anywayanywayy!
when we were walking,
i needed to pee, again,
then charmaine was like laughing with minggy & they made me want to pee more.
so charmaine tried to make me laugh more by laughing muchmuch louder.
then minggy was like,
"ERHEM, ERHEM!"
then we followed her gaze.
& there were like some adults there!
who heard charmaine laughing so damn retarded-ly.
!!!!
so funny.
then i was like,
"Charmaine is the one that laughs very loudly."
& "Minggy is the one that _____ (i forgot!, but something not very nice.)"
& then i said, "& I'm the.... (thinking of a nice thing) PEACEMAKER!"
then minggy was like,
" More like the person who wants to go pee very often."
& i was laughing & laughing & laughing.

OHYA!
another thing.
when minggy was ordering her foood.
& she COULDN'T HEAR THE SALESLADY!
asked like, four times alr. o.o!
then minggy was like,
"okay, i have hearing problems."
then charmaine,
"no, you don't. you have super serious hearing problems."
HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

;DD

i shall upload ALL the pictures ASAP!

<333 night everyone!

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