Washing out of life early is not that unusual. In the old days people also used to peak early. I'm able to pinpoint my high point, exactly. I just feel like a person can explore herself only so far to find almost nothing of interest before discouragement sets in. The way i see it, in the past little while, i have discovered that i am not:

1. Going to finish my Chinese SIA by 2nd June.
2. Going to enjoy my holiday.
3. Able to cope with stress.
4. Do my algebra homework.
5. Being able to do only work on the computer.
6. Going to finish my holiday homework.
7. Going to have time to study for my Block Tests.
8. (Thus, i am not) Going to do well for my Block Tests.

I could go on, but i remain too depressed to do much more than eat. Never mind success, functioning at all seems like an impossible dream for me at this stage.
I am lost, and i can't sleep.
Or, if i sleep, i can't get up.


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It's 12.08am, as so it says on my compaq laptop. And today i was so nice as to let my brother use the laptop for 1 hour before my turn. Suprisingly, i'm not tired. It was a long day after all. I want to sleep, my eyes are so baggy you can't even see my eyes. HAHA, that's freaky. If You're Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield is nice. I'm in love with it.



This wednesday my mum is bring my brother & i to ice skate. All who reads this is invited. Of course, my mum is not rich and thus she will not pay for you. I'm sorry i'm so blunt. We could have fun together, though. (: That's the whole point. Minggy, YOU BETTER NOT SIT OUTSIDE. Try learning! You may not want to get out later. HAHAHA!



Okayokay, i'm crapping. It's because i got nothing else to say! Oh ya, i gotta do a quiz for nataliee! (: but it's in her blog and i'm lazy like a pig. YAY thank God i got someone to talk to on MSN. And this person's funny too.




Hmm. Maybe i should go now.
It's 12.17am. And i'm still not tired. Really. I'm not like, boasting/whatever. -.-
But seriously. My God. How am i supposed to sleep tonight?
I got tuition on Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday.
Hah. How nice.



BYE (:
goodnight! <3

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