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title:
date: Friday, February 29, 2008
time:10:07 PM
today is not a good day.

some people are saying that we copied their dance moves & wants us to change it.
now. i'm not saying it in a bad way.
but 108 people, i know what you mean.
but think of us too.
you want us to think of totally new dance steps in freaking 2 days?
if you think it's possible. why don't you do new dance moves and we stick to ours.
since you all are so smart.
i don't mean it in a bad way.
i mean seriously.
it's stupid. this fight is stupid.
we are supposed to enjoy talentime.
and now we're making it difficult for one another.
and i hate being in charge of a fight.
we have already APOLOGISED, for goodness sake.
and you take our apology like some sort of godforsaken shit?
and the thing is, we did not do anything wrong!
the moves are from cheerleading in p6.
so how could we copy you!
get your facts right please.
thank you.
mind you, we are being extremely kind to use please and thank you kay.

UHGHGHHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGGHUHGUGHUGHUGHHG.

Jodi Picoult is a great writer! :D
i love her books.
OHMYGOD. i don't know where she gets all her inspirations from.
so many stories & all of different structures.
but they're all kind of in the same way.
all using strong vocabs to describe stuff in a very interesting way.
:D

youknow today we were supposed to stay back for the rehearsals and practically no one did!
so poor jermaine and xinwei and i were like trying to cheorograph then in the end we started talking.
then i went home and cheorographed moves in the shower.
i notice that i always cheorograph moves in the shower and that's the only time when i have the inspirations.
OOH. now the blogging time is right. [:
anyway. i realise that teaching is tough.
especially dance.
in such a short time.
and everyone just cannot practice during the same time.
so like you have to teach some, then teach the rest the next day.
which is a total waste of time.
but i have to thank the wonderful dancers for learning so quickly! :D
jermaine & i are proud of you. (:

youknow today i replied my angel during a super short time!
she gave me my letter during recess and i replied her by the start of lunch.
when yuanmei gave eugenia (my angel) the letter eugenia was like staring at ym open-mouthed.
then eugenia asked, "bernice one?" or something.
then yuanmei replied, "yeah."
ym said that she was REALLY shocked.
it's the first time in history! :D

and eugenia decorates letters like super nice! :D
she has real talent. :D:D:DD

i'm flunking all subjects.
and i can't stand failing.
i hate life.

today all the subjects reps are supposed to talk about their experiences!
and JOAN was so darn freaking funny!
when she stood up, she said,
"SO FAR SO GOOD."
HAHAHAHAHA.
i was laughing for a good whole minute.

our class watches the video "How To Be Emo"
it's damn nice.
stella showed it to us.
and ym and i kept on repeating what they do for the same facial expressions and the emo song.
and yuan mei rocks her chair.
ohmygod i'm laughing.
yuan mei rocks her chair when she's "dancing with friends"
and she goes like some sort of horse riding.
youknow. she's really retarded & hilarious.
LOL.
"tee hee!"

YAYAYAYAY!
i finally cheorographed almost everything.
and trust me.
it's not easy cheorographing.
it's tough.
and requires thinking.

i like the emo song.
i finally learnt it yay!

"E is for Emotional; ruins everybody's day.
M is for Miserable people.
O-ways from the dark side 'cause we have some fresh cookies.
COOK-IES!"

it's so hilarious and nice! :D
you guys should really go watch it on youtube.


i love high-five.
:D
1-2-3-4, high-five!

toodles!


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title: Pink is on her way to the top. (:
date: Sunday, February 24, 2008
time:9:20 AM
i decided to put a full-stop there and then.
'cause i guess you've already understood.

Tag replies!

Natalie: awww. sad. i got block tests too. :D but i haven't study. ohwell. all the best! :D

Jingwen: CAMP IS GONNA BE FUNN! :D hope you're enjoying school & once again, thanks for tagging!
btw. which is your blog? :/

-DONE-

we're becoming more distant.
we're just saying yes to convince ourselves.
maybe we should just stop communicating.
we should stop talking to each other.
we always seem angry at one another.
maybe we should just forget about everything.
and maybe i should just forget your lies; forget the things that bonded us.
i've been let down too many times.
maybe it's my fault.
i'm sorry.


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title:
date: Wednesday, February 20, 2008
time:7:50 PM
HELLO again! :D


i love this small font. [:





FIRST THING; TAG REPLIES!





Jingwen: HAHAHA. glad that you finally can tag! :D hi to you too. [:





Natalie: YEAH. let's hope that tomorrow'll be better & better! [: today was okay-okay... had stupid science quiz and i didn't know how to do all the questions. ]: AHHH. ANYWAY. let's not talk about that! are you free on friday? as in this coming friday? 'cause pearlyn & i are going ice skating. you wanna come along? :D



Pearlyn: HAHAHA. yeah! i had a great time last night, thankgod. :D and we look so cute with all that soft toys! [:



Elizabeth: Ours is a three day camp too! BUT WE DON'T GET TO GO TO EAST COAST PARK. ): anyway, we have alot of other fun stuffs too! :D we're going to sleep in nygh; in our classes. :D just like nyps. OMG I LOVE THE RED CROSS THING!!! I WANNA GO STAND THERE AND ASK PEOPLE TO DONATEE! ;D lol. but i really want to! [: SO COOL. so. where are you going :D!


JingWen: HAHA, yeah, my tagboard has problems. sorry about that! D: good luck for your cas too! although what we have are block tests. ]: and it's like, 3 tests all in ONE DAY! ]: wth lah.

-DONE-

ohshit. i gtg. bye.









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title:
date: Monday, February 18, 2008
time:6:49 PM
HELLO. [:

UHM.
just to let all of you know, this blog isn't referring to anybody; isn't directed at anybody.
it's just a blogskin.
:D
yeah.

i can't stand the fact that i'm jealous of some people.
and i detest many people too.
and that's bad. ):

i don't know why.
but i felt really high today and the past few days too.
BUT I CAN'T HELP IT TO FEEL THAT ONE DAY, AFTER ALL THESE GOOD DAYS, THERE'S GOING TO BE A BIG CRASH. and everything goes falling down.

I HATE THAT FEELING. ):

today, someone (i forgot who; i think it's yuanmei) asked me,
"if your crush has a gf, will you forget about him?"
HMMM. my answer is YES.
but anyway. it was such a random question.
but actually, i don't know.
maybe the answer is no.

don't you think it's weird,
swimming in a pool of people,
and when suddenly,
disaster struck,
and no matter how loud you cry for help,
no one actually cares.
then later, you found your arch enemy right beside you,
asking you to hold on to her,
and she pulled you all the way up to safety.

today we had our quizzes returned back to us.
i suck at quizzes.
and i hate failing.
i just can't stand another quiz.
someone. just shoot me.

today's a mixture of things.
happiness, disappointment, sadness...etc.
not an ideal day for me.

LET'S HOPE TOMORROW'LL BE BETTER! [:

goodness knows why, you're always there.


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title:
date:
time:6:39 PM
i'm pretending, 'cause i haven't got over the fact that you sucked, and you've embarrassed me.
you think you've got control over me?
oh. think again darling.
you think i want to spend a damn second smiling and you and pretend we're the best of friends?
you think i like the fact that you're controlling my every goddamn move?
you try to act as if you have everyone's back.
when you have no one picking you up/lending you a helping hand, you come to me, and pretend that nothing's ever happened.
i HATE that.
and don't think that i'm going to be here for you the next time you fall.
i'm not saying this out loud, ot telling you straight in the face that i detest you,
'cause i thought i'd give you another chance.
i haven't known you that well.
i don't know who you really are.
you have a personality that no one really likes.
don't you know that?
well. i do. and others too.
you think you've got everyone behind you, waving the flag and cheering for you?
think again.
sweetie, i'm only pitying you.
i don't really care about you anymore.
i have other nicer friends.
just to let you know.


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title:
date: Saturday, February 16, 2008
time:5:20 PM
life is just so beautiful.

HALLO! :D
i decided to use NORMAL font today 'cause i'm feeling happy & highhh!
i haven't reply your tags yet 'cause my comp is seriously corrupted and everytime i want to write a damn comment the internet closes down and there's this stupid thing that says,
"the internet has some problems. we need to shut it down. sorry for the inconvenience. then at the bottom, SEND ERROR REPORT and DON'T SEND ERROR REPORT."
-.- i hate that.

ANYWAY. YESTERDAY WAS FUUNNNN!
OMG I THINK IT'S THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!

School ended at 12.15pm.
went back to nyps.
met all the teachers that i wanted to except miss yasmeen. ):
but anyway, it's doesn't really matter.
weiyu was like counting the minutes we were spending there 'cause we were supposed to go to...
JEC!
TO TAKE NEO-PRINTS!
TO EAT LUNCH!
TO PLAY!
with weiyu and xinwei!!!
OHMYGOD. it was sooooo fun!
when we went to kfc, there was this cute guy serving us. then weiyu was behind me, xinwei was at the front being served by him. weiyu was laughing at me and saying that i'm xiao. then xinwei gave me those type of shocked look. LOL. i think i was really high yesterday.
then we went back to nanyang primary again.
xinwei and i took a picture there!
then we went to my house! :D
it was supposed to be for project, but we spend 3/4 the time playing!
weiyu had to go off at 5.30pm.
and xinwei stayed with me till almost 10pm!
xinwei and i were like sorting all the soft toys and taking pictures of them.
we put the camera on self timer.
the first time we took, xinwei put the self timer at 20 seconds.
it was just nice.
but at the second time, we have already experienced it during the first time, so the time should be 10 seconds, RIGHT!
but xinwei put it at 30 SECONDS! and we were trying to stop laughing all the time, 'cause we are like dummies smiling into the camera. (:
IT WAS JUST SOO FUN!
with your very good friends, you can just do anything! :D
even the craziest things will be just the right thing! [:

people are at my house now. sigh, when will this cny visiting thing stop? ):

i'm thinking sooo much about yesterday that i can't think of anything else to write.

Bye for now! :D


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title:
date: Thursday, February 14, 2008
time:3:01 PM
challenges can be conquered if you believe in yourself and have someone by your side.

TODAY was GREAT! (:
again.
anyway, it's before calligraphy. so of course it's FUN! :D
today was eventful! :D
oh, youknow, i had to spend don't-know how long explaining about something someone said, and weiyu didn't believe me! ):
then i decided to just ask that someone right in front of her, and she said "yes. i remember."!!! i screamed. 'cause FINALLY, weiyu believes me, but she can't believe that it was happening, 'cause it was too unbelievable. but it's a happy thing for her. [:
TOMORROW'S THE GOING-OUT DAY! [:
weiyu, xinwei and i are going out tomorrow, after school!
(school ends at 12.15 because of the people who acheived good results for psle!)
then later they are all coming to my house. :D
we're going to JEC to take neo prints, eat at KFC (weiyu & i LOVEES the fries with cheese)! ;D

OHOHOH. yuanmei's bf said to her, "i love you" todayyy! OHMYGOD. and it's a bf who didn't keep in touch with her until now!!! IT'S JUST SOO SWEET! i mean like, whatthehell. that guy actually REMEMBERED about her! GOODNESS! :O
my senior (yangjie) gave me a very sweet rose! and it has my name on that paper that it's attached to it, then there's a heart at the bottom and beside it says "yangjie". SO NICE! :D my angel didn't give me anything... but i didn't give yangjie and my angel anything too, so yeah. but i'm going to buy! so i'm going to buy all the gifts tomorrow and i'll distribute them tomorrow. :D

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.
i love today.

I LOVE TODAYYY! :D

i think i'm supposed to go do calligraphy now. bye!


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title:
date: Monday, February 11, 2008
time:3:37 PM
HEYYO everyone! :D

i still don't have a tagboard, but i'm working on it. [:

TODAY's A GREAT DAY!
something happened; which i shan't say, but it makes me happy. :D
and there's dancee today too! [:
the other stuff are on the joint blog.

and i'm loving blogspot! [: i think it's GREAT.
OH, i heard from ym that our class did not win the uhm hamper competition ): HOW SAD!

are they?
or are they not?

YM told me about her EX bf! finally.
and i think they were having uhm a very good relationship. :D

oh, ym, go for it!
TAKE A PICTURE OF THIS NEW GUY AND SHOW IT TO ME!
if you don't, i'll have to go to your ____ and find him! (: joking lah.
but he must be really hot; the way you say it is way too cool.

JIAYUN'S A NICE GIRL. [:
she really is.
today i had the chance to talk to her for awhile; while we're queueing (is that spelt correctly?) up at the western food stall. she's really nice! :D and haha, i found out that she dislike the same people as i do! [: sherry's a nice girl too. i can now see why joeline loves jiayun this much. :D jiayun's really awesome! [:

i got some jokes that i've been wanting to post from the reader's digest but i haven't found the time!
HMM. i shall post next time!

and i forgot to bring back the book that xinwei lent me! it's under my desk. i wasted my chance of reading! ):
have to go out with my mum now.

TATA! :D

to see her was to love her; love but her, and love forever.


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title:
date: Friday, February 8, 2008
time:4:10 PM
smiles can't solve your problems, but at least they don't make it worse.

2nd day of CNY! :D
and no one is onlineee.
they're all probably too busy visiting.
haha, i'm visiting too, but using my cousin's laptop. [:

anywayy, i wanna tell you this super weird thing that happened yesterday.
as we were visiting, something happened and when we were in the car, my mum said,
"Cavan (my brother), i don't like _______(a school name), so you must study hard and try your best to get into hwa chong, k!"
my brother: But i don't like hwa chong; it's too cheena. i prefer ______(the above school).
ME(interrupted): haha, but _____(someone's name) is inside hwachong. he's not cheena lah.
My mum(after being interrupted): Don't worry, when you get into hwachong, you'll get to see alot of girls from nygh everyday. you're so handsome, surely got alot of girls like you.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY MUM IS SERIOUSLY WEIRD, ISN'T SHE!
omg i think that she needs to have a vacation/holiday and take a break from all her work. i think that's what bringing her downnn.
(ohwait, jacob lim just went online. [:)

my brother is annoying, he's pestering me to get off the comp, but omg i only used for a short while at first then i let him use it, then he's pestering me NOW?! ): ahhhhh.

ohwell. Happy chinese new year to all! :D
i shall post more next time! :D

BYEEEEEEEE!


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title:
date: Wednesday, February 6, 2008
time:8:54 PM
yesterday, i waited for your friends to walk away, so i can say just what i mean.
i know we're moving fast; we're running from the past, i'm holding on before it fades away.
could it be that maybe it's our first mistake, and baby that's alright, it's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight.
there's a reason why they say that we should give it time, but time is not enough,
and that's the reason why, when you're young you fall in love.
standing still, i'm waiting round to see if this is real. 'cause i feel like i'm asleep.
i'll open up my eyes, 'cause you might be the type of girl that makes me dream when i'm awake.
so tell me can this really work, or will we end up getting hurt?
is this love or myth?
so tell me are you in for this, there's so much than we can see.
more than you, more than me,
it takes two to believe.

Yuanmei's leaving singapore today! ): she had to leave school early to go home to pack her stuff. ): omg so sad. i'll miss her craziness. sigh. AND PEARLYN SAT AT THE OTHER END OF THE HALL DURING THE PERFORMANCEE! ):):): and we were like smsing each other about where we are. haiya. Nygh's CNY performance is definately much better than nyps. idk la. maybe 'cause it's like new to me. not sure... and i just found out that many people write well for calligraphy too! seriously. and i feel so stupid, 'cause my writing is like the ugliest! ): sigh, i highly doubt that i'll win for our class. i'm so sorry! ]:

CNY'S TOMORROW!
and my mum haven't got her red packets ready.
and she needs my help.
but i told her to wait longlong, 'cause i wanna use the comp. [:
she seems to be fine with it. 'cause anyway she's too busy to bother.
i just can't wait!
'cause i'll be finally free from school and work and all...
but only until sunday 'cause then i'll have to rush all the homework!
which is going to be TOUGH. 'cause there're just too much!

i hate my this spare phonee! ): it's so stupid. ahhhh. i hate x 1768493025 it so much! i can't use it la! i take so bloody long just to type a simple message. ]: and that repair man is taking too long to repair my phone! ]: and it doesn't even have a gallery/file manager! wth, can you believe it! i can't!

don't you think life sucks?
it's so pathetic, so unfair.

OHOHOH, The Guy Next Door is a great book! [:

and i can't create a cbox! ): WHY! what's wrongg! i need another helper, or i'm going to die.

hey you, i know i'm in the wrong, time flies, when we're having fun.
you wake up, another year is gone, you're twenty-one.
guess you'll never know why i'm on the phone,
wish i was at home, i know it's kinda late,
but happy birthday.

i saw your face.
it's creased with sorrow.
i know you regretted.
but trust me, it's isn't your fault.

sometimes you just wanna restart, to try again, to repeat the whole situation again.
you wanna say it right this time, you wanna be reasonable.
but time won't allow you that.
and that's why we feel guilty, and we have sorrows.

HAPPY CNY TO ALL! :D
may you be happy for the rest of the year! :D

byes!


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title:
date: Tuesday, February 5, 2008
time:2:51 PM
i fell asleep with an empty bottle of wine.

HELLOO! I'm in Nygh's library now... haha, i was soo afraid that they'll block me from going into blogspot like they did for some other blogs, but it didn't! :D soo glad. (:

I think i flunked today's chinese presentation. God, i didn't know what to do/how to present! ): but anyway, great that now it's over! :D

OHOHOH, i borrowed a book from the library! finally they've allowed us to borrow! [: it's titled The Guy Next Door by Meg Cabot. only have started reading the first page.

i hate you,
you hate me,
let's go out and kill barney.
with a pistol "Bang!" "Bang!",
and barney falls on the floor,
no more purple dinosaur.

poor qianyi has chicken pox! ): gosh, that's soo sad, especially during the chinese new year! ): WUSHU is actually FUNN! ;D lol, yeah. after awhile you'll find that there's this pattern to it & all.

TOMORROW'S chinese calligraphy competition! ): OMG, idk why, but i'm like so scared! and tomorrow's the day i'll be going back to ny. Ny haven't changed, its still the sameee! :D and the teachers haven't changed too. they're all sweet and nice.

Eh, why suddenly change to small font! ): never mind, i shall just stick to this!

don't you know that you're sucking up to her?
don't you know that you aren't related to her and she doesn't know you?
don't you know that you're just trying to be her friend and have seniors?
even she knows that.
ohwell. you know it yourself too.
and everyone else does.

I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR CNYYY!
2 more days, 2 more days to goo!

This post is TOO short. hmm. what else to add.
ohohoh! BOWLING! i got 168/4 the last lesson. i went 1 hour late so i only got one game! ): but yeah, it's still funnn! the rest was practice and playing spares. sigh. have to wait till next week; this week no lesson! ]:
and i haven't practice piano! i get scolded by my piano teacher everytime, and she hits my hand when i play a wrong note. i don't know what the hell is wong with her. she isn't married, that's why. she doesn't know how busy kids are these days. and, she has really SCARY moodswings! she can scold like hell then suddenly she becomes so kind and says bye. or, the previous lesson she's like so damn angry then the next lesson she won't even talk about it & she pretends as if i'm her best student! :o she's so freaky! she's not a singaporean, btw. she's a malaysian, i think. 'cos she doesn't really understands english and her english is so uh. but her chinese isn't those type of cheena type, it's normal, but like super fluent. so my dad says that she's from malaysia. i don't know la.. and i don't really care. ohoh, i have a concert in march and she's hopping mad 'cos i haven't even play a single note 'cos i was too lousy with my other songs and i can't play that! :o and she doesn't let me start on my concert song unless i play the other songs well and it's only like, 3 weeks away! told you she's WEIRD!

yangjie's going to be so proud, 'cos yuan mei & i put her under the "LOVES" and yuanmei seriously loves her. and i'm invited to yangjie's church for a party about love on valentines day. yuan mei and hilary and some other people are invited too! yangjie writes letters to me and i think she's really sincere about letters; she prints out the papers with loads of designs (using her OWN printing ink) and then writes them! so much work! she says that writing letters are much more sincere! :D
eugenia, my angel, decorates my letters! her pen ink and her effort! she's really hardworking! she once topped the class! [: i'm so proud of my angel! (:

oh well, gotta go to calligraphy lessons! BYEE! :D


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title:
date: Monday, February 4, 2008
time:7:28 PM
Hello all. (:
this is my FIRST post! (:
haha, blogger is sooo cool! i love it. <3
and it's not really that tough creating a blogspot blog. [:

Today was a okay day! :D omg i just loveee ym!
she's crazy but nice,
evil but sweet,
blur but smart! (:
she's of a special species, lol! i created a blog w/ her too!

don't you think life's like a roller coaster?
you choose which ride to take, and you'll be riding it for life.
you hop on, cling onto the handle for life, and life starts.
it was easy at first, and then comes your real life; the reason why you're sitting on this ride.
sometimes the ride will go all the way up; your happiest moments of your life.
sometimes the ride will go all the way down; your worst moments of your life.
one day, your life just has to stop.
but it's different for everyone; and it's all up to the ride controller.

this thursday is Ying Yee's birthday! (:
and yuanmei & i have bought a present for her!
it's so cool! (:
D'YOU KNOW THAT THERE ARE 3 PEOPLE IN OUR CLASS WITH THE SAME BIRTHDAYS!
it's so cooool! :D

sometimes i just hate life, hate the way all the misunderstandings happen to me.

CNY's coming! :D yay! i love CNYs! :D

OHOHOH, my handphone was thrown on the floor by my younger brother! and now i have to use the spare phone, which can only sms & call! it's so bloody stupid! ]: it's vodafone 225. and i take so long to type ONE message 'cos it's so different from nokia!

you turn to look, to stare. i turn back, only to find you looking away.
i turn to look, to stare. you turn back, only to find me looking away.

i pity that girl, sitting by the windowsill, seeing all her friends buying her favourite chocolate ice cream.
she digs into her pocket to count the coins, $1.46. She silently tells herself, "$0.54 to go."

I don't know whether to choose dance or calligraphy. i can transfer, but i don't know whether i want it. for caligraphy, you can have your OWN trophy, and your OWN prize. But for dance, it's for the school, and as a group. I don't know, i really don't know. ):

i'm doing it for you, i'm not explaining to you 'cos i don't wanna ruin your relationship.
i'm not worth it;
it's her who is.
i'm suffering, but you're thinking that i'm running away.

it's raining,
it's pouring,
the old man is snoring.

i love the rain. i love water.



oh, i gotta thank my dearest geraldine for telling me the instructions to change the blogskin & all! (:
THANKYOU THANKYOU! :D

ohwell. i need to go eat dinner!
tata!

tomorrow'll be a better day, i hope.


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