I'm hanging on to a tiny branch of a tree that's at the edge of the cliff.
I'm still holding on, but i'm slipping off.
And at any time, i'm going to fall crashing down to the sea.





I'm falling; i'm falling.

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Hello, [:


Today was the storytelling performance. And i told my story which i remembered this morning. [: amazing. The teachers were pretty impressed and laughed at many parts. Mr. Kaw saw me and told me that we had interesting stories. :D YAY!


Yesterday i had calligraphy CCA. My father was late to pick me up, so i waited at the Audi for him and saw the chinese dancers practicing. Then i started crying. IDK WHY LA! It was so stupid. I was crying a soft one, like suddenly there were tears in my eyes and the more i thought about the happy things the more tears came out. -.- Lucky no one saw, i think. Or not they must be thinking i'm a mad person who's emotionally unstable. I guess it's because i saw the moves and was really sad at how happy they were. And it suddenly occured to me that i'm not going to dance anymore so i started crying. So retarded, haha! When i was in the car i started crying too, and whenever i cleaned my tears off my face, more tears came out. ): I don't even know why.
Anyway! When i grow up and have a house of my own, i'm going to have a room specially for dance. [: I know. I think too far. ;x


Apparently someone from 1/9's mother called Miss Ye and said that half the class did not know that next week was chemistry block test. The mummy was called "Mary Ng." She asked ME if my mummy was Mary Ng. PLEASE LA. My mummy does NOT have such an old-fashion name. Wth. She's called IRENE, same as Rae's mum :D
Then weiyu and i was talking about it.
ME: Mary is the name that's normally used for maths paper.
WEIYU: Bala also. (idk how, but weiyu always seem to have a way to mention bala in our conversation. don't kill me weiyu. :D)
ME: HAHA, yea. Like example, "Mary has 20 marbles. If she gives 3 to Bala, how many marbles would she have left?"
WEIYU: HAHAHA! Yea!
lol. [:



I dreamt that i am walking into an ocean, the waves soaking the hem of my cotton nightgown. The water is cold, and the beach beneath is a smooth lip of sand. I keep walking, even when the water reaches my knees even when it brushes my hips and my nightgown sticks to my body like a second skin. I keep walking, and the ocean water comes up to my neck, my chin, my eyes. By the time i go under the water, i realize that i am going to drown.


At first i fight, trying to ration the air i have in my lungs. Then they start to burn, a circle of fire beneath my ribs. My wide eyes burst back, and my feet start to trash, but i'm getting nowhere. This is it, I thought. Finally.


With that realization i let my arms go still, and my legs go limp. I feel my body sinking and the water filling me, until i am curled on the sand at the base of the sea.


The sun is a quivering yellow eye. I get to my feet, and to my great surprise, begin to walk with ease on the bottom of the sand-filled ocean floor.




I'm still holding on, but i'm slipping off.
I'm falling; i'm falling.

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hello :D

today Miss Teng, our maths teacher didn't come to school. So we had to do our own work at the computer lab [: It was a graded assignment but we could ask around and discuss. I got 14/15. Not because i was good in maths, but because minggy changed my mistakes. LOL. Anyway. The question our whole class don't know the answer 'cos the question had some problem and cannot be solved. Thus, it's kinda like FULL MARKS :D
HAHAHA, I have such a big ego.


LATER I HAVE CALLIGRAPHY ):
i'm blogging in school btw. And minggy's typing is so loud, it makes sounds like "PHUP! THUMP! TAD! TED!" LOL. Sorry if i offended you minggy ): but you are so cute when you type. LOL! I just realised that it was the spacebar. [:


OHMAN. WE HAVE CHEMISTRY BLOCK TEST TMR WEDNESDAY!
Therefore i conclude that i'm going to dieee.
OHOHOH. My class's Home Econs people get to COMMUNICATE with the Japanese people (: HOW COOL! 'cos our class consisted mostly of HMP people, so only very few people (9) are doing Home Econs. WE GET TO VIDEO CALL THEM! I was sitting beside weiyu in the comp lab for Home Econs to talk to this Jap person. Then weiyu was sooo funny. The Jap person talked to us (weiyu & i). So weiyu said,
"Wow, this person's so nice. D'you want to ask whether it's a guy or girl?"
ME: "Err. I think better not. We're representing the school. & I don't think it's a HE."
WEIYU: "Har...okay lor." (She was probably hoping it was a guy 'cos he was nice.)


Then the Home Econs teacher said,
"OH! The person that you are all talking to is a DOCTOR, FEMALE. & CURRENTLY WORKING."
I was like, "HENG you never ask."
Weiyu: [open-mouthed and hitting me and laughing her laughter.]
LOL!


We had a chem pop quiz today. Only this morning then i saw it. Was studying in the morning with my dearest minggy and it kind of paid off [: 'cos at least i know some of the questions. Fine, make it few of the questions. :D


HAHAAHHAHAHAHAH! QIAN YI'S BLOG GOT THIS THINGUM AT THE END OF HER POST THAT SAYS:
"I guess i really need to learn how to let go."
& SHE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT IT WAS THERE! :D
hahahaha.


oops i gtg. BYEE <3

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Hello.


I still have not finished my holiday homework. I am left with the Chinese composition, TWO Calligraphy homework, Math Practice Paper, LA Assignment, YueDuBaoGao, and Geography Assignment (Bar Graph). Plus, revision for the upcoming block tests.



Therefore, I conclude that my life getting out of hand, and if i don't start work on them now, I am going to die a horrible death.




URGH!


-xx-


I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay right here forever,
until the sky falls down on me.


I'll be your dream, your wish and your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, your love and everything that you need.
I will be strong and faithful 'cause I'm counting on a new beginning,
a reason for living,
a deeper meaning.


I still love you.

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INSTRUCTIONS


a] People who have been tagged must write their answer on their blog and replaceany question they dislike with a new formulated one by themselves.


b] Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These peoplemust state who they are tagged by and cannot tag the person they were tagged by.
continue this game by sending it to other people.



1) What do you think an ideal friend should be?
Someone who can comfort me when i need it, someone who can pick me up when i fall, someone who can tell me what desicion to make, someone who can share my troubles, someone who is perfect. Probably someone sweet too. :D


2) If you had a dream to come true what is it?
That i can wish for another million dreams.



3) Whose butt would you like to kick?
Like i'll tell you.


4) What would you do with a million dollars?
Invest it.


5) What is your ideal lover?
Probably someone that is nice to me.


6) Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
Same as minghui. Both is the best.


7) How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Long enough.


8) Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
I don't know. "Extremely" is a strong word.


9) Will you die for a guy you love?
Maybe.


10) If the person you like is attached what would you do?
Give the person whom he is attached to a hell of her life.


11) What do you see yourself as in 10 years time?
A person who drives, finally.


12) Who is currently most important to you?
My family? No, maybe not. I don't know. Everyone's important, i guess.


13) What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
A super sweet person who loves everyone. She is willing to wait for a latecomer. Fantastic friend, and bus-partner.


14) Would you rather be single but rich or married but poor?
Depends on who i marry.


15) What is the first thing you do when you wake up?
Feel for my handphone, check if anyone has sms-ed me, then sleep again.


16) Will you give in all in a relationship?
If it's a good relationship.


17) If you fall in love with 2 people at the same time who would you pick?
I don't fall in love with 2 people, and will never.


18) What would you do if you know you are gonna die?
Do all the things that i have not done.


The 8 people:


1. Somebody.


2. Nobody.


3. Anyone.


4. You.


5. Her.


6. Him.


7. She.


8. He.



-xx-


Man. I kind of dislike quizzes now. OhGosh. Why do i feel so tired and like i've given up hope? Sometimes idk if i've made the right choice. Like, coming here and leaving there. Who Knows? I might be happier there. I dislike life anyway. I still think that if i didn't come here, what would happen? Of course, i wouldn't be as miserable as i am. I also wouldn't be that doleful. MAN! I detest life.

Sometimes i feel like everybody's got a problem,
and nobody wants to solve them.


Why is it that everytime when i plan something, it goes wrong? Today i sucked at bowling. It was the suckiest score ever. And i had a swollen thumb. Fcuk today. URGH. I can't stand you, i can't stand her, i can't stand him, i can't stand myself. I can't stand everybody! Why does life have to be so challenging? Why can't it be a little easier? Probably if i die today, nobody'll miss me, eh? Probably. Nobody gives a damn about me anymore.



-xx-


I miss you. You were my life. You were what i was living for. Now we're isolated, drifting further apart by the minute. You were a part of me. And because of this, we were torn apart. Don't you miss me too? I can't stand people asking, i can't stand the look on their faces when they hear that you and i have been separated. I didn't want it to happen too. Dance, i miss you. You're still in me. Let's just pray hard tonight, that we'll be together again.


-xx-


Love = Lurve
Me = Meee
You = Uu
Friends = Fwens
Shopping = Shawping
Umm = Erms

& etc.


It's really a wonder why they don't create a English ~ Twit-Talk dictionary. Seriously. It'll help people to understand.




Today's just not a good day.

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He laughed gently and I relaxed
Happy to find
In spite of the gun.
He was still a man.
It lit the dark that gentle laugh
In the pith of night...
But it was only the low laugh
Of one who was soon to die.



Ken Saro-Wawa
(from Songs in a Time of War, 1985)



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My mum pushed me, till i hit the sharp point of the table. It throbbed, but i have much more pride than that. I stood there, and tried my best to stand upright. I was giddy, and i saw my mum swaying back and forth, left to right, then right to left.


"Clearie dearie, what happened to your head?"
"I don't know."
"Clearie dearie, why is it bleeding?"
"Well, i think someone pushed me and i knocked my head."
"Not me, Carmen, you hit her, me no go jail. You go judge. Me no touch her. Carmen, you got see me touch her? No no. Me no go jail. Me no go jail."
"Shut up, Eastman."
"Drink this up."
"Come on, drink it."
"Now, that's good, Clearie Dearie."
"Clare, are you alright?" "Mummy says that you need help in preparing dinner. Need my help?" "Clare, what happened to your head?"
"Four eyes, are you spying for mummy?"
"No, why d'you think that?"
"Then shut up. And i don't need your help. I can handle it by myself."
"Clare, Clare! You're bleeding."
"I'm not blind. And i can feel."
"You'll dirty your shirt."
That sprung me into action. I didn't want my lovely shirt to get dirty. After all, i was the first to wear it. Thanks to my job at Roses.


"Thanks, Four Eyes, but i don't need your help."
I continued cutting my chicken, and i was aware of Eastman calling to his children. Cynthia! ___! He went into the kitchen and called softly to them. Any fool would know that no one would hide in here. He pretended to look around, but i knew he was staring at my head. My blobbing head. It annoyed me, but i thought i'd scare him a little. "Cynthia..." Aww, shut up. I plucked out the chicken feathers. Eastman started talking to himself.
"Me no touch you. You got see me touch you? No. I never push you. Me no go jail. Judge no come find me. Me no go jail. Carmen did this. Carmen."
He started shaking his head, slowly, then faster as time goes by.
"CARMEN! She's bleeding."



The story carries on, but i think i've given enough to make you interested to read it. [:
I think that's how one part goes. Some words are not really that exact. There are many more parts which i want to share, but have no time. ]: SORRY! This book is "Ugly", by Constance Briscoe. [: Her mother left her at the age of 13. No electricity, no food, no water. She was to fend for herself. In spite of all that, she still managed to be one of US's first women to become a judge.


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Let's not think about tomorrow, take my hand tonight.
We can find some place to go.

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It's late, so i only have a few minutes to the computer. Finished replying tags.



I went to escape on tuesday. Escape = Escape Theme Park, for those people who has absolutely no clue. Clara and Ruisi went with me [:
I don't have time to write about all, so i'm just going to write about one thing.


If you are some poor soul out there who wishes to sit on a viking ride all your life, a word of advice from a rider:
Ask Santa for another gift.


Anyway, one more thing before i finish.
Beside me, there was this guy.
and NO, i'm not going to say that he's cute and i like him.
I was screaming, pathetically the only one doing that.
And, at the top of my lungs.
SO. That poor guy was covering his ears while riding, and once i shot a glance at him. Guess what? HE WAS LAUGHING.

AT THE POOR POOR ME WHO CANNOT WAIT TO GET OUT OF THAT SEAT 'COS I'M FLYING OFF, AND I CAN'T STAY STILL ON MY SEAT. I WAS SCREAMING 'COS I HATE VIKING AND IT SUCKS.
don't ever go there.


'cos, i was seated at the SECOND BACK ROW.
D:
ohoh, then after that we went to meet ruisi (she did not take any ride as she was scared), and clara told her that i was screaming hysterically like some mad woman. guess what ruisi said?
"Oh, NO WONDER. I heard someone screaming so loudly."
o_________________o AND SHE WAS SEATING SO FAR AWAY from the viking ride.
then i felt so embarrassed ;x



i dislike viking to the superduperluperzuper max.


goodnight, and goodbye! :D
<3!

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