Blogger is a place where I can rant and not scramble for words to fit in those empty spaces. I've been talking to crazy Xing Ting these times and I've realised that they're many similarities between us.
I miss primary school.
Although then I've always looked forward and waited impatiently for secondary school, the eagerness to start anew was boiling up inside me each day. But then, I found myself heading towards Nanyang, a small dim lamp in the bright spotlight of dreams.
Suddenly, I became more of a robot. I never had my own ideas anymore, instead everything's blur, there are no crystallization of outings, lies filled the room of liars.
Closet muggers loomed and they made you feel inferior, non-closet muggers were innocently classified, too. Torrents of pity sometimes emerge, but many a time you get engrossed in the overflowing gossip that you forget what it's like to be young again, and not in this drastic working life which we are facing 10 years earlier.
I've been acting like a geek, studying and being kiasu, shamelessly selfish at times, too. At times I feel my mind wondering... Will we continuously sharpen and polish our acting skills to the extent that we forget who we were, who we used to be? Will we forget the incidents that made us tumble with laughter, or was smiling only existant when you were the top in class?

I've always told my mum that studying ain't a neccessity, as what if you've been studying for your 10 years since you've been born, working aimlessly for your PSLE...but omninously a tragic disaster escaped and you're gone. What use is that 10 years of studying, without having a taste of the WII or LAN?

I know I should be studying History, since I haven't even memorized anything and stop fooling around with my "husband" (aka laptop :D), but today I felt an incontrollable sense of urge to blog. Oh hell, I'm sure I'm gonna flunk History.

I miss Natalie oh-so much! D: Nowadays memories of Natalie came back to me... Like the time I wrote her surname wrongly in my xi zi, and she's always inhesitant to come straight up to me and see what I was doing, instead of just being shy & all. Nat's really the bestest friend ever!!! <333333 I can't wait for her wedding (;


I should change from saying "I miss primary school" to
I miss my true friends.

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