I throw all of your stuff away
then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
and ignore all your messages
I tell everyone we are through
cause I'm so much better without you
but its just another pretty lie
cause I break down everytime you come around

You never know what you want
and you never say what you mean
but I start to go insane
everytime that you look at me
you only hear half of what i say
and your always showing up too late
and I know that I should say
goodbye but its no use
can't be with or without you

-xx-

I don't know why I keep on lying to you, I don't know why I can't bear to see you with someone else. I don't know why I keep thinking of you.

This is so insane I feel like smashing my phone. They say feelings die off, they slowly fade away. They're all liars, it's been so long, why does this feeling still linger?

I always tell myself I'm getting over you, but every question still has you in. I say I'm fine, but I never think about you though you're always on my mind.

P.S. HE added me on msn!

-xx-

To my best friend in the whole wide world:

Don't be sad anymore, I love you and you are my pretty sunshine. You are everyone else's, too! Look around you, how many people care about you - family, friends, even guys that do so much as pass by you probably has this huge crush on you, you know those like, I-saw-you-once-and-instantly-I-knew-you're-the-one kind of thing. :)

I love the bees (heard you're a bee ;)),
I love the daffodils,
I like the mountains,
I like the orange (favourite colour :D) hills,
I love my Natalie,
you'll never walk alone.

Life is all about obstacles. Be strong!!!!!! I know you are!!! <33333333333
You're my darling bao bei, you're a hpy to some people, you're the bees to some flowers, you're the leader in npcc! You lead people with your joy, you make people love you, and it's okay, things, feelings like this really goes away! (Only affairs of the heart don't, sadly, haha!) I love you, okay! You've gone through it before, I know you can, again! Trust me, you're not the only one that has to go through these kind of things, everybody has!!! Just that they try to hide it and "be cool", but you don't!!! See how many people care for you, 我爱你！

因为有你，世界就有声有色、完美、充满乐趣。你是大家的最爱，大家的宝贝，你善良，有魅力，而非常美丽！！！加油，千万不能放弃哦！

Pardon my chinese, bestie >< I'm really 班门弄斧-ing!!!

-xx-

MALACCA WAS AWESOME AND I LOVE 209'09!!!
Tired to post about it, if you want to read, go weiyu's blog she has a very extremely detailed version of Malacca's trip :) Just a few things I wanna say:

• Super memorable - many many ahem incidents that happens on the bus, and i will not experience it again
• Super extremely fun :) 20909 rock!!!
• Super extremely funny :D
• Super extremely crazy
• I will really miss 209... :(

-xx-

OMG! NZ's in like, 4 days :O I feel like fainting... 3 weeks w/o family & friends in Singapore! :( What if I cry man... Haha I have not started packing, shixzxzxzx and I still got loads of things to buy!!! I went to buy a super expensive winter jacket that I actually have, it' just a different design. And I fought with my whole family because they didn't allow me to buy it at first. I think I need to learn to be thrifty... :( I am really making my parents hard earned money to go waste!!! Although the jacket reallyyyyy looksss damnnn fabulousss!!!

I wanna watch 2012! But my dad wants to watch the dunnowhat ninja thing. I hope I win the 2012 one!!! 'cos anyway since I'm leaving (boohoo) he should let me choose. And my mum wants 2012 too! I wanna watch Love Happens before it runs out!!! :O

O.M.G. what am i babbling about... I just hope Nat feels better because I am feeling sad for her too :( This is just nonsense you can stop reading now... I feel so sad nobody tags here anymoreee :( I really like Boys Like Girls.

P.P.S. Although he may not be that shuai I think I'm looking forward to talk to him OMG THERE IS SERIOUSLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME!!!

Byebye people! This will probably be the last post before I leave... I WANT TO KISS MY FLOOR GOODBYEEE... 3 weeks, OHMYGOOSE!!!

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