I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken


A comment from a Youtube user on this song:
kathryn199722 (5 days ago):
(...) and i no if it happened again, i wud say evrythin i left unsaid.


-xx-

I feel tied, super tired. I got unfinished homework to do shizxzxzxz.
And shockingly as it seems, I like hannah montana :)

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Death is a painful and sorrowful step in life we've all got to overcome with hesitance.

It isn't the one leaving that's feeling the pang of despondency. It's the one that she's left behind who's mourning, melancholy overpowering every cell of their bodies, combing the past, scratching between her possessions, desperately trying to feel her broken presence within every one's heart. All who knew her felt and shared the grief among one another, although no words were vibrated through the air - silence being the main ornament that kept the salty tears from falling - the despondency and desolation passed through telepathy between all of us shattered our very souls, disintegrating our hearts into a thousand fragments. These snippets of our love enclosed by our hearts begin searching for their place in the puzzle, piecing the pieces of you together solemnly, until a perfect, quintessential picture of you is portrayed, leaving that for every single one of us to remember, to keep it etched in our memory, forever.

-xx-

Happiness is brought by love.
He called me pro, and he shared my water. Plus I made him choke while we were both cracking up. Hmm, when was I this elated again?
OH. MY. GOSH. I think I'm obsessed with him.
The best part about the flawless him is that, his name starts with a M. According to facebook, my true love's name starts with a M. :DD
Finally, things are starting to look normal for a holiday. To end off with a note that'll make you all swim with pleasure, I have not started on any of my homework except ace-learning, which I have cease to complete.
God, please help me.


What you are is God's gift to you,
what you become is your gift to God.

Tata<3 .

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Miley Cyrus - 7 Things - Parody




Lyrics:
I probably shouldn't say this.
Because my friends think that I'm weird.
Everytime I say I love you they remind me you can't hear.
It's because you're cardboard. I'm always ignored.
But you feel so real to me why can't they see.
And you're still standing in the same way.
Just how i left you yesterday, against the wall.
Don't fall.

The 7 things I hate about you.
You're fake, you break, you are not real.
If only I had something to feel.
You are 2D with no back side.
You cost me quite a lot to buy.
My friends are jerks they make fun of us.
Just know it hurts. I want to be with the real Miley.
And the 7th thing I hate the most about you
You make cardboard look cute ;-)

It's awkward and silent because cardboard cannot speak.
I wonder what you think about when you smile and stare at me.
Dood are you serious?! You're delirious? She is cardboard
she can't hear us.
YES I CAN. (lyke WTF)
Dood zomg did she just talk?!
She's been real all along! Say something again!

DAVE NEVER TOUCH ME AGAIN!

The 7 things I like about you.
You're hair, your eye, cardboard Levis.
When we kiss you're hypnotized.
You let me do whatever I want.
I can't wait till Chris is gone! ;-)
We never fight when I hold you tight
Ow! Splinter! Ohhh it's alright!
I wanna be with the real Miley.
And the 7th thing I like the most about you.

You make cardboard look cute.

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This is my 204th post.

And I cut my hair, again.
I look ridiculously like a guy. No kidding, when I washed my hair in the shower I wanted to bundle up my hair in a ball so that it can lay obediently on the top of my scalp, but I couldn't. Realisation dawned on me that I have very short hair.
In a way, that's cool. :D

I watched Slumdog Millionaire with my family. And I had to admit, it was pretty wicked. Fantastic and I wished I had just 2% of one of the producers' brain. The way they thought of everything tragic and miraculous was stunning. But I hate the part about the blind little singer. I pity him soooo much and I felt my heart pang when he was isolated in that train station 'cos of the stupid forgot-who whom blinded him.
I like the young Jamal. :) My dad says that in the real cruel world, all the producers gets the big cash through the big-break of this movie and the little kids get limited amount. But they were the ones that stole our hearts, not the damned producers. So I'm pretty fed up.

CCA OUTING WAS FUN :D!
Plus ten points! We camwhored a lot, kudos to ah pang! And then we barbequed and I have a burnt face. Anyway! We gossiped & laughed & went crazy. And I found out a new side of lagoon - she is scared of horror movies! Okay fine, me too. So we were grabbing each others' hands for our dear lives and when lagoon saw a scary part which I didn't (yay! 'cos I covered my eyes) lagoon will tell me every scary bit so there's no point in covering. And we screamed our way through the whole movie.
Just to let you know, I still am scared. D: BUT NONETHELESS IT WAS A FAB DAY FILLED WITH FUN!

Today... was awesome :D Only Nat<3 knows why.
I learnt how to play rugby today, thanks to somebody! Okay okay I found a new crush. He plays badminton superbly. :D He taught me cool tricks! But I only know:
#1. His name
#2. His address
No doubt abt it, #2 sounds weird. He's cute. And he has an American accent. Plus he's polite. :D And I should just stop right about now.

My parents and brother are watching this movie called Doubt. I managed to catch one funny part:

Student A: Can we ask the girls to dance with us?
Teacher: Sure.
Student B: But what if she turns us down?
Teacher: You can ask the other girls.
Student A: What if ALL the girls don't wanna dance with us?
Teacher: That's why we have priests.

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Many a time we dream and fantasize about what we want to become.
A rock star, the President, Princess Juliet.
We get held down by other circumstances, by others' expectations, by the socialite of this materialistic world. We want to become indelible, a character of a lifetime, a filmstrip tied by ribbons of immortality, papers stapled with staples of magic and the impossible.
All of a sudden, these dreams disappear along with the snap of cash, cameras of fame protruding you in the daily papers... Your dreams of being a fish goes with the wind, leaving leaves of the autumn - your decision to become an accountant ; a lawyer. You ace all interviews, watching yourself from a distance, thinking, wo-ah hey there perfectionist. You know how to react with impoverished smiles when you're thrown with a back-tracking question, you know the exact steps to be a high-flying successor, you know how to sweet talk your boss into getting a promotion, you know the correct books to claim and secure a deal with the company's alliance, receiving the expression of acknowledgement.

Only when someone asks you for your father's height, his weight, his favourite food then you sickened, finally realising that you've been sinking deeper and deeper into the quick sand of love. Combing for failures between each silicon dioxide, treading seams within your family's treasures... But you still have not gotten back what you've been leaving behind, what you've been sacrificing.

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I.
CUT.
MY.
HAIR.
!

I miss my old hairstyle, damnit! I have this funny fringe and I feel weird everytime my gaze does so much as look up 'cos I'll see hair! NORMALLY I DON'T. It was at the sideeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
And the hairdresser cut wrongly, it doesn't look like bangs. But the worse part is that it's too long ._. So I have to cut it AGAIN before I go to school 'cos I definitely cannot pass the spot check.

Sorry to disappoint peeps, my phone is spoilt. Serious problems so I can't upload my pretty picture of me & my bangs! HAHAHA actually I look very weird ._. EUNICE'S BANGS IS VERY NICE! She looks like Rui En! BUT ANYWAY I rebonded my hair!!! REBONDED REBONDED REBONDED!!!

Which is also another reason why I woke up with a jolt when my hair not
#1. Puffy
#2. Tangled
#3. A ball at a side
And then I realised that I had rebonded my hair. I FORGOT MAH! I have not started on any homework D: I planned to finish all my homework by this week!!! (How ambitious of me.)

When I visited the doctor, I asked him if I can grow to 165cm. He took a long look at me and said, "Let's be realistic, maybe 161cm?"
...
D:
And then he said that you will stop growing 3 years after your that thing arrives. THAT MEANS THAT I WILL STOP GROWING WHEN I AM SEC4 *&#!(@*#&)!(*#&!(@*&# !!!!!!
I tell you, at least at least at least I must grow till 16ocm. AT LEASTTTTTTT. Or not I'll just die of humiliation from all my friends like CHARMAINE SAW ahemahem***!
That is also why I'm going to marry an ang moh! Because they are
#1. Tall
#2. Handsome
#3. Not shy
#4. Open minded
#5. Romantic (wahaha)
#6. Funny
#7. Hot & Muscular

AND I LOVEEE GERMANS OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!
hahahhahaha stella & charmaine! hahahhaahaahh LEONARD.
LE-O-NARDDDDDD <33333333333333333333 DROOOOOL DROOOL DROOOOOOL.

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