Why are we always trying to pose for the best posture for the camera, when we know that we can never change reality?

Why do we always thank the cashier who passes us our change in the supermarket, the taxi driver who provided us a route to quick journey, and yet always forgetting to thank the person who is always next to us, waiting for our acknowledgements?

Maybe it's not how the world looks at you, but how you look at the world.


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We watched "The Sixth Sense". Everyone, except Chew Ling, had watched it before, but after Chew Ling insisted on watching this award-winning movie, we chartered to her request and before the start of the film, we began to give spoilers.

An hour later, at eleven, my father came back, his tie rounding his neck like a scarf. He almost thought that he had gotten into the wrong house until he saw me sitting between Pat and Sian Min.

"Wow, a gathering. Nice." he said and locked the door. "Let me see." he started to count us with his finger. "Seven of you. My car can only sit four, but if you don't mind squeezing and if you don't mind me speeding away from the Traffic Police, stay till as long as you want. I'm not sleeping tonight as there's a UEFA Champions League match, so I can fetch you teenagers home." He moved towards Chew Ling and tapped her head like a little girl. "You're so small, I think you can fit into the boot. Which primary school are you in?"

Chew Ling smiled at my father and thanked him. When he was in the bathroom, Chew Ling crawled towards me and said, "Your father is a good man."

I just nodded, dismissed what she commented as polite. Chew Ling draped her elbow beside me and muttered, "The UEFA Champions League ended last month. There's no English Premier League match, or any Spanish La Lagi match tonight. Basically, there's not a single football match tonight. Maybe softball or netball, but definitely no soccer."


Many things we do are unconsciously supported by our parents, no matter how insignificant their contribution is, they are the ones that are constantly shaping our lives to ensure that we do not live a life full of regrets, to enhance the joy we have in living a non-perfect, however blissful life that keeps the smile on our face, not plastered, not glued, but as though it's a part of our facial features.


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"I cannot laugh."

"Why?"

"When I was in Primary Three, I laughed and went to the hospital. I thought it was just asthma then. Then, a few days later, I laughed and felt breathless again. In the end, I tried not to laugh. My mother was very sad. She said, 'how can a person not laugh in her life?'. I told her it can be done.

"I told her I cannot laugh,but I can smile. So I keep on smiling. My Primary School classmates all called me 'Smiley Face'."



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I L.O.V.E. MY FRIENDS!

I realise true friends stick together no matter what happens.
True friends don't buy others' stories, true friends believe nobody else but each other, and only each other.

I just want to thank you guys for making me realise this - you guys know who you are.
And I love you all, and I regret not creating history with you guys earlier, I regret not going high for no rhyme or reason after the moment I was born.

Long story short, you guys bring vibrant colours to my life and I don't think I could survive this without you all. :)


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GROUP K!
You guys make me feel so horribly terrible that all of you have dedicated at least 2 posts to GROUP K specially and I have only one. And you guys constantly sms me about GROUP K and GROUP K and GROUP K and nothing else but GROUP K and GROUP K.

I do not have time to blog here, but I just wanna show my gratitude to all of you for creating a memory so vividly wonderful that it'll stay, etched indelibly and I don't want to forget any one of you.

REMEMBER TO LET ME BE YOUR BRIDESMAID! You guys will all be mine!!! I will somehow somewhere squeeze you in :D WHOOTS GROUP K, LIVE ON BABIES.

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I don't want to tell you to go and die. I don't need to.
I don't even want to wish that you didn't exist.
Just that, if I could change everything over,
if I could ask God how to plan my life,
I wouldn't mind being poverty-stricken, I wouldn't mind being lesbian,
if that is what it takes to live my life without you.

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There's a kind of hush,
all over the world.

Memories last a lifetime. The memories of our happy days have been tarnished, like a broken photograph. You gave me a present, a frame, remember? I've printed a photograph of you and me using my printer. It's beside my bed, and I look at it before I sleep, every night, without fail. Now, I feel like taking it out and throwing it into the bin. Not because I hate you, not because I dislike you, but because I don't want to feel the hurt every time your smile and my hand over your shoulder grins back at me, haunting my dreams.

I think there are endless apologies for me to say. At this point of time, I think Thank You would be the best. Thank you, for letting me realise that you hated me. Thank you, for letting me know what you think of me.

Thank you, for giving me a chance to stop acting like a fool by smiling at you, laughing with you, and leaving tags on your blog. Thank you, for erasing all memories I have of you, for the unhappy ones have replaced the good ones, and left it even.

The hush settled, disputes broken,
by the post that left all triumphant,
but one shattered.

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HELLO EVERYBODY :D

xyzomg it's been ages since I last posted! HAHA OKAY ANYWAY I'M HERE TO TALK ABOUT PSL CAMP!!!!!!!!! eunice♥♥ & i were like enjoying camp esp at night when we talked till wee hours in the morning! hahaha and she sleeps so adorably :D :D her head went all the way to my hand there! i wanted to pat her head and give her my pillow but 'cos she was sleeping so comfortably and soundly i didn't want to wake her :x SO ANYWAY!!! WE HAD LOADS OF FUNN CAMWHORING TOO :D

I LOVE MY GROUPPPPPP (K POTASSIUM) IT ROCKS EVERYONE'S SOCKS!!! It's the coolest group everrr, although during ice-breaking it was kind of awkward but later, we kept on ganging up to go against our adorable, amazing and breathtaking group leader - LINSHA!!! hahaha I think her anger management classes taught her very well.

MY GROUP CONSISTS OF: from Sec 3 to Sec 1
Linsha, Lingting, Shannon, Yours truly, Kylee, Etsuko, Jingwen, Yuanmin

WE'RE ALL PEBBLES AND STONES, FOR WE ROCK :D
omg i am so lame... HAHA during the camp (esp. during dinner when the food was horrid) we crapped a lot and laughed at super lame jokes!!! mostly contributed by me hahaha after lingting heard the jooookkkkeeeee joke she was so shocked at my lame-ness that she pushed my head!! hahaha it was so funny!

ETSUKO'S LAME JOKE:
What did Chair A say to Chair B?
Ans: Nothing, 'cos chairs can't talk.

What did Sushi A say to Sushi B?
My guess: Sushi cannot talk.
Ans: What's up, B? (WASABI ._.)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA. okay and I told many many lame jokes! And everybody had their fair contributions too and yuanmin (who's normally very quiet) started laughing like crazy at our jokes too!!! (mostly at mine HAHAH KIDDING)

anyway! amazing race was funnnnn! we spent like 1 hour on lunch ahhahah! while everybody went around desperately finding stuff. OMG I LOVE LINGTING LAH OKAY SHE'S SO FUNNYYY. and kylee was so cute at the night trail! she was soo scared and she kept on hugging me hahahha when the super scary mask woman came!! WALAO THEN WHEN LINGTING AND I WAS ASKING LINSHA WHO'S IN THE MASK STOOOPID LINSHA WENT, "huh? what mask what mask?" BUT SHE WAS TRYING SOO HARD NOT TO SMILE SO WE COULD TELL SHE WAS SO FAKING IT!!! :@ Qi si ren ah!

hahahahaha but I think our group bonded loads in the night trail, that's why we got the prize for winner at the night trail!! whooooots! but lingting was damn sad we won for that 'cos she wanted maggi mee as the prize ._. and we got kongguan biscuits (given all to linsha) and really cute halloween magnets!!! I LOVE THE CUP GAMEE THE SUCK MARBLES ONE!!! linsha is so pathetic she can't suck them! so I got really fed up and took the marbles from the cup and passed it to the other HAHAHAHAHA. then linsha was like, "that was what yuanming will do!" Apparently kylee & linsha thinks I talk, do and don'tknowwhat like yuanming!!! OH THANKS TO EUNICE I KNOW WHO SHE IS NOW!!! :D

We were all signing autographs like crazyyy! I think I signed very big :x BUT ANYWAY IT WAS SO FUN!! we passed around our camp booklets and like we started writing crap!! i signed by big awesome name everywhere and told all of them i love them! I JUST CAN'T WAITTT FOR SEC 1 ORIENTATION!!! we're gonna have tons of fun and crazy bonding time together again!!!

Linsha - The Best Pest (haha she's so poor thing always kenna by us!!! our cheer has her being a pest in it! but in the end we were so nice when she went to collect the prize we went all, LINSHA, WE LOVE YOU!!!)

Lingting - The Tortoise (did I mention that she's super duper slow in everything especially in getting lame jokes, but it's not because she's cool HAHAHAH NO LAH SHE'S MY COOLEST DARLING♥)

Shannon - The Experienced (she lost very badly in 10 fingers 'cos she has been to so many places and done so many things!)

Bernice - The Les (IDK WHY I AM CALLED THE LES I JUST HUG PEOPLEE. shannon gave me a hello panda so i went all, yay thank you want a kiss? then straightaway she went all EEE NO NO. hurt my feelings! D:)

Kylee - The Nonono Cutie! (hahaha she never fails to say "nonono" and shake her hands very violently haha! she's also very scared of linsha :O plus she's soo cute and suaku!!! her first time taking the MRT was on thursday ._.)

Etsuko - The Brainiac (W/o her we wouldn't even pass the amazing race! SHE'S SO SMART XYZOMG SHE FIGURED OUT ALL THE CLUES BY HERSELF! hahaha she's like wheeeee super good at lyric writing :D)

Jingwen - Water Games Pro! (Kylee keeps on sticking to her!!! hahaha she is so funny too! she's like AWESOME at water games zomg! :D hahah we keep on cheering for her like crazy!)

Yuanmin - Awesome Dancer! (She's a damn cool dancer who helped us at xiaoen's station with her amazing moves! Go girl! :D)

I LOVE GROUP KKKKKKKKKKKKK, EVERYTHING OKAY!!! POTASSIUM WHOOOOOOTSXZXZXZXZXZ :D




Top to bottom, left to right: Jingwen, Linsha, Kylee, Shannon, Etsuko, Bernice, Lingting
(P.S. LINSHA & KYLEE ARE STANDING TOGETHER, EVEN HUGGING HAHAHHA LOOKS LIKE THEY'RE OKAY NOW :D :D)



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